Rock with Sun

As I embrace nothing for my desire, I may only say

“Le doute n'est pas une condition agréable, mais la certitude est absurd”

or

“Il est impossible que l'improbable n'arrive jamais”  

12 November 2008

I did my annual presentation for my studentship. Three out of six students were doing signal processing or pattern learning. Were we over depending on statistics? Were we just doing curve fitting?

When we have no clue what is the next stage of research, we are tiring to predict our climate. Fantastic!

The gravity of Asperger is just enormous.

11 November 2008

After I did some grocery, I decided to rot in my room. Reading something about agent theory, I guess competition and cooperation are just inherent our system. Communication is a way for synergy but our beloved nations seem to put our self-interests higher priority than global interests.  

It is a chocolate night in our hall. Chocolate is enchanting but it makes us thirst as well.

Should we respect our freedom or other?

10 November 2008

Oh! I just wanted to go to have my hair cut.

9 November 2008

I went to homeless people service.  

Serving may just help me feel.

How? What? I don’t know.

8 November 2008

We went to firework. It’s transient but captivating. Spinning in a ride made me dizzy. Maybe, this is fun. Back to our hall, we went to see Family guy in TV room.  

7 November 2008

We went to have a dinner at Bayswater. When people are mush, they need to focus. I hope their band would work out.

6 November 2008

I went to have dim sum at China town. Oh! I wanted to stay at home to read.

5 November 2008

I went to have KFC.

4 November 2008

I went to a talk about climate change and media at UCL. The best part of talk is that we have finger food at the end.

Sometime, we don’t know we are means or ends.  

3 November 2008

I went to a talk about energy policy at LSE. Looking at so-called cost and benefit analysis, I am not sure how much we can trust the policy developed by economists.  

2 November 2008

Homeless people service can be addictive.

1 November 2008

After doing shopping for our Halloween party, we had a quick lunch. Then, we did some decoration. I went back to my room to sleep before Halloween party started. When our mind is occupied, we just want to in our own world. 

31 October 2008

After a long missing and longing, I could finally some fun for Friday again. We first went to Highstreet to get some Halloween stuff.  Then, we headed to Russell square for dinner, but the restaurant was busy.  Therefore, we went to see Spamalot!!! Yes, it’s a bit spontaneous. What do you expect? We’re in London. Theatres were just next door.

The musical was wicked. It seemed to be a trend that our contemporary musicals need to touch the subject of Jews and sexuality. Yes. Why don’t we be open about them?

Then, we went to have dinner at May Flower. Although it is a bit expensive, it is a quiet good night out, especially when I put my transfer report behind of my mind.

30 October 2008

I stayed at home for whole day. I tried to get moulded.

29 October 2008

One of my mates came to have lunch. Then, we went to Grantham’s weekly seminar. After it, I had a tea with the guys in our office. I did not anything for whole day.  To catch up some time, I just stayed in the office a bit late.

28 October 2008

It’s a very cold day. I went to committee meeting for Halloween party.  At the end of meeting, when I walked out from the VH, it was snowing.

27 October 2008

I went home early to get some rest. I just did not know what I want. Maybe, I need some quartile plots.

26 October 2008

I went back to office to try to get stuff in order. The feeling of rejection and alienation was clicking. I tried to get some consolation by going to homeless service stuff. I just found that I had some emptiness.  

25 October 2008

Originally, I wanted to go to office, but I just slept for whole day. I went to my friend’s place for two people’s birthdays. Then, I went to King’s Cross  for my friend’s farewell party. Anyway, I did not know anyone there. I just stood there.

24 October 2008

After we had a dinner at a Japanese restaurant at SOHO, we went to my friend’s birthday party. It’s just a party after a party. I think that this is just a part of college lives. However, I preferred some nice conversations rather than some superficial brief encounters.

23 October 2008

Our section had a party for postgraduate students. Well! There were many people there. I just knew that I was shy.

22 October 2008

The students from the climate change centre had some free lunch and we tried to have some discussion what our group would do next year. Then, we went to a talk about biodiversity. What is the role of genetic algorithm of it?

I went to KFC to have some fried chicken.

21 October 2008

Clayponds had Mafia game on again. I was Mafia. Playing around psychology could be dangerous. What is our reactance playing in our heart?

20 October 2008

I felt very sleepy today. Therefore, I bought some coffee.

19 October 2008

After having dinner with my HKU mates, I went to homeless people service.

Then, I watched 21 which is a film about a clique of MIT students hitting Las Vegas. Then we had some wii fit afterward.

A controlled chaos is an unsettled emotional turmoil.  

 18 October 2008

After meeting breakfast gang, I went to Farnborough. Then, we went to golf and a big supermarket which it cannot be found in London.

17 October 2008

I drifted in the pub before going home to have some quiet time.

16 October 2008

Having some poker, I just wanted some quiet time at home.

15 October 2008

Having mood swing, I decided not to go to college today. I walked alone to Ealing Broadway to recollect myself. What does the purpose mean?

I just wanted to sleep. However, sleeping too much made my body ache and gave me headache.

14 October 2008

After meeting my supervisor, I knew that I am on track. I wanted to go to some course but I have to contact the lecturers responsible for them.

Not feeling like to stay at office, I went home early.

In the evening, I went to bowling. Something seemed to be missing.  

My variance for my bowling score is just high. Looking at the frequency domain, I have a peak for Gutter ball.  Ok. It is enough for the jargon for the signal processing.

13 October 2008

How to an eldest son in a family to handle the detachment feeling? The unsettling emotion is difficult to handle. What are the object-relations? I just want to feel secure.

I am not sure how to ensure my existence is bringing good or just for other to satisfy their need.

I went to our hall meeting. I don’t really care of meeting. I just glad to be there for the interaction.

12 October 2008

I met some friends and have ice-cream near Charing Cross in the afternoon. Then, I went to the homeless people service. I did not go to Holborn with them because it was too many people to fit on the mini bus. Therefore, I was back to my office and waiting for them to finish.  

Then, I went to have a coke with them later. Passing by the dinning hall, I just have a thought on why people need to act against their personality. I didn’t understand an introvert give a speech in front of hundreds of people. Why can’t we be ourselves?

Sometime our invasion to other psychic may be subconsciously.

11 October 2008

I went to Kew Garden. There are same dimensions of time and place but different people.

After going to Ealing Broadway, we headed to film. Yes, I was stupid. I got on a wrong bus. We finally have dinner at Nanado’s.

“How to lose friend and alienate people” is a fun film. Do we need to make our hand dirty to get to top of ladder? Are we adapting the system or the system force us to conform? 

Everything’s good for the existence.

10 October 2008

I stayed in Holland pub for the whole night before going to the pizza place for some dinner and heading another pub near Gloucester Road station.

I don’t know what I am thinking. Maybe, it is just the fate.

9 October 2008

I went to pub crawling from our hall. I felt happy to know the symbolism of our mind.

8 October 2008

All the students under Grantham’s studentship had a seminar. What is the relationship between climate change and PhD students?

I went to have some indoor games. The board games about robot and train were interesting.  

7 October 2008

I wondered around the fresher week a bit. Then I sat at the CAG counter.  I went to Karaoke night.

My obsession of humanity kicked in.

6 October 2008

I went to have some mass game in our hall.

5 October 2008

Listening to the soundtrack of Avenue Q, I am glad that I’m still in college.

A new academic year start again.

4 October 2008

Other semester is starting again. People move in our hall. New faces and old stories are just all mixed-up.  How can the emotion flow like fluid in Hydraulic? Favouritism just touches my nerve and winds me up. 

I just wanted to play wii.

3 October 2008

Finished a week of typing reference list, I just went to Holland pub for a pint of coke.

2 October 2008

Talking to a mate taken self-actualisation course, I just don’t know how much his psychological development is affected. Family unit as an institutional unit just creates mayhem for the people are self awareness.

Drifting around in SOHO, I felt the temperature is dropping.

1 October 2008

Everything is starting again.

30 September 2008

I don’t know why there is nothing

29 September 2008

It is another Monday. What will be coming?

28 September 2008

When our dearest bankers kept saying that they don’t need any regulation, they keep begging public money to bail them out. Why don’t they take their money from their account to fix the messy system they created?

27 September 2008

Getting crazy about wii, I bought a sport mat and I sprinted and jumped on it. 

26 September 2008

Being a pub worm, I stayed late.

When I went back to hall, some chaps had some Ouzo .

25 September 2008

We need motivation to work. However, the unsatisfying psychological needs take away our concentration and attention.

24 September 2008

When the time comes, people have to move on to other stage. Staying at pub in Wednesday night seemed to be a bit too early in a week.

The longing is just strong.

23 September 2008

I stayed at home to be myself.  I slept a lot.

In the evening, I went to see Billy Elliot at Victoria.  Here is some favour of the show.

Though the dark an’ fear, we know that we are outcast. We might be feeling blue and lousy, but we may have some razzle-dazzle and shine. How can we be sober when we spin around and reel? Perhaps, we’d be ourselves for entire lives but it may be happier than to be somebody’s somebody.

 In a broken system, people can only survive in solidarity.  What’s wrong with expressing yourself for your predilection? We don’t need to impress other because of the social doctrine. We may just need to know how to cry, laugh and tell other off.  We weren’t born to stand still but we have our will.

Maybe, we should say Merry Christmas to our beloved Thatcher or marry Christmas Fetcher to hope that we will have some happiness deep into the ground. Should we give in now? Do we have our pride in how we live? The answer may be electricity to make you angry and scared. The ground is empty and cold as hell, but we all go together when we go.  We don’t know how far we can go but we can be true and do everything to be ourselves. 

22 September 2008

I’m still keeping filter and clean the data. It’s just looping. I am in a dazzling loop.

21 September 2008

Distributing sandwiches, I talked about how to make some good chocolate with some fellows on the street. They advised us to make some stronger chocolate especially when London is getting cooler. 

20 September 2008

Walking from Acton town to Shepherd’s bush, I went to have some vegetarian buffet. I liked the style of the food.

19 September 2008

Leaving the pub, I went to have some pawn in curry with some of mates coming back to London. Then, we went to have some waffle. 

18 September 2008

When a child was deserted, his or her later attachment may be ambivalence.  

Just looping in the catchments, I felt like that I was in the endless data extraction. 

Suddenly, I am interested in the stories about Hadrian, a dictator.

17 September 2008

Should evolution and creationism teach in science? I am not sure the circular argument should be a good idea for children. If creationism is included in the science class, the universal view by New Age may be enlisted in our school as well. I really hope that I can learn my star chart in school.  

Do I follow narrow minded liberalism?

16 September 2008

I played wii along with some chocolate. I seemed to force the mate watching football out of the room. The market could still go up. You can see that people are still speculating. They should get their karma one day.

15 September 2008

The financial market is engaging an upcoming disaster. I hoped the ones who exploited our system learn a lesson.

14 September 2008

I went to distribute sandwiches. It was very nice that my mate brought a mooncake for all of us. I enjoyed eating mooncake during Mid Autumn festival.

13 September 2008

Our hall had a casino night. I hope that my mate will be fine for her situation. People should move on.

12 September 2008

Getting mood for Friday, people headed to the Union after work. We just liked stupid jokes.

When people engaged a relationship based on responsibility or a quick fix for libido, they are suffering. Our attachment may be resulted from our child development. 

I don’t know how much we should go for biological approach. I seem to prefer the heuristic approach from psychoanalysis.

Will machine have emotion? Is emotion useful for computer? Perhaps, if our machines have emotion, machine may want to ensure their power supply under their evolution algorithm.

I am not sure my preference to junk pop music reflecting my personal disposition.

Sometime you just don’t know why you poured out.

11 September 2008

Playing Wii, I tried to understand its algorithm. I guess it uses neural network to catch human movement.

Therefore, if I gave limited body movement which I can fool the machines, I could still perform well the task. I also find that the transition between nodes can be abrupt from one stage to another stage.

10 September 2008

I felt exhausted by copying and pasting for GCM data. I kept on looping…

Playing Wii, I tried to have some exercise. 

9 September 2008

What is intelligence? We may need to be motivated to have our self actualisation. However, we don’t really have the plan for implementation. 

I found my console of a console.

8 September 2008

I did data entry for whole day. It was not very intellectual. Processing raw data was very exhausting.

The emotional attachment may be a disposition of our personality which is not flexible or malleable.

 Perhaps, tear can take our psychological burden away.  It may be a best cathartic method.  I live with Wii again.

7 September 2008

Disturbing sandwiches to the homeless, I just hope that they can have better lives. 

The courtesy in pubs is more difficult than medieval code.

6 September 2008

My mates moved to a new place, and I helped them to move. I really don’t know how people can buy a place in London.

5 September 2008

My mate needed to find a place, so I did not go to union with my office mates. The first place that we visited is scary. Luckily, the second place was fine.

I looked at K mean. My brain kept turning around it.

4 September 2008

The ideas kept coming up, but my programming speed could not catch up. How can I test all the ideas?

3 September 2008

Rational deduction may be a cruel conclusion.

2 September 2008

I stayed at home. One of my mates is going to study in imperial and he left some his stuff to my place.

How to define an artefact by the formal and material properties of the work, content and context? Oh dear! When I saw the toilet after my friend left, I felt very distressed.

In Dispatches, we seems to know that why our mortgage will increase as a result of beloved bankers.

Bonus is an insensitive the bankers working for their self-interest.

How to NICE to decide their drug list when other drug companies do much better in their price research?  People on the top of chain just know the loose holes of system. Perhaps, according to genetic algorithm, we know that we cannot find the best fit species but we can find the species to explore the system.   

From the BBC program about the opening of terminal five, we may know the role of boss’ rose-tinted view towards the project for the resulted fiasco.  Moreover, no one can tell their kings who are naked.  

Watching dispatches about Mosque, I am not sure that it is a fair presentation. I really hope that they will not look at homosexual as a curse or nonbelievers as enemies. We may have to understand their view based on the context and the content.      

1 September 2008

I just like an addict on some mathematic problems. My brain is keeping on looking at the relationship between the filter and the transfer function. It is just some algebra but they are not trivial. However, if we take out a paper, we can solve it.      

I am listening to the latest album by Chet Lam. It is fun to listen to it. I worked in an engineering consultant at Kowloon Tong. Then I moved to work in a site the Kowloon City. It’s just an album full of symbolism of Hong Kong.  The last song in the album is “When the party is over, I miss my dear porn star”. It’s a song by a singer with very local Hong Kong English accent.  “Wen dai pa’tee ‘ee’s O’var, I me’ss my dee’ar poon star”, “ be’coz I don no Putonghau”.    

31 August 2008

The eternal tension between complexity and generalisability of models is a perpetual challenge for our modellers.  The question of model optimisation should be a choice between memorisation and generalisation. 

I went to distribute sandwiches. Getting people to be in order is a bit too much for me.

30 August 2008

When we talked about genetic program, we need high-level primitives. For our research, it seems that we need high-level primitives as well. We cannot do everything first principles. However, we must be careful that it does not mean that we can use other people result without knowing them from first principle and quotation.

Stepbrother is a fun film.

29 August 2008

I guess saying good bye is just an excuse for some gathering. Some of us went to have lunch at Big China and a tea for one leaving intern.

When we talked about affection, appearance seems to have a relatively importance roles. Getting too much stimulation, I preferred to hide in library. 

We went to Union for a drink. Non-city life without excessive business seems to be difficult.  Are many cities in the UK struggling for their financial account? Perhaps, it is just a stupid view from a bloke brought up in the city.  Then, we went to a pub for some food.

What is fair? If we can spread some good messages when we provide some community service other, we may also tell other about liberation when we are donating money.     

28 August 2008

I went to see Summer Palace at the BFI. The film is full of explicit scene. In terms of Kant’s beauty, the film should not be a piece of art, because it is succumbed to the desire. In any case, the film bought my memory at Beijing in 1999. Time has gone fast. It will soon to be another ten year. When we look back, we may find that some of the students’ decisions of their movement were whimsical and irrational. How can we move on? How many people love our fellow in our country? We may just want to worship money…     

27 August 2008

Our Japanese mate’s going to Ireland and passed by London. We went to have some Chinese food.  The cracking Japanese family system showed the problem of our institution, and people are suffering from it. 

26 August 2008

The prison dilemma invented by Flood and Dresher in the 1950s show the real-world arms race. People always say that our human nature leads us to cruel exploitation (e.g. colonialism, war) but we may do much better reciprocal cooperation.  When we move along Pareto frontier together, we will not make some people loss when other gain. The reason for this not happening may be just some stupid psychological reasons.

Should our society try to exploit the weakness of other societies to maximum our own benefit instead of global benefit? Should we follow the advice by Kenichi Ohmae in our M-shape Society? I definitely say that we should go for cooperation.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/M-shape_Society

I just wanted to go home earlier and slept.

25 August 2008

I was reading about some German History. Why European like to learn Latin? What is the correlation between political views and learning Latin?  

Is it EU just another type of unification between Germany and Austria?

Having some pub food, I was thinking of international relationship between Japan and China.

24 August 2008

I slept excessively before going back to college for packing sandwiches to homeless people.  When we were in Holborn, we found out we did not bring with cups. Therefore, I just tried to get some cup from Sainsbury but it was closed. I kept finding and I found some at a corner shop.  In any case, we managed to give some hot tea to some people.  

Our sky does not cry, but we romanticize it. Our loneliness builds one wall after another one and reminds us the meaning of tear result of the curfew. The defensiveness, perhaps, may be just a scariness of our incompleteness.

23 August 2008

In Gifts Differing, some sections include sensing writing and made me extreme tired to read it.

 Early learning of us is associated with how we use our percept and action to relate our world. What we see, hear and speak affect what we know consciously and unconsciously. 

We may need to embrace parallelism, when we need to engage different possibilities simultaneously in an efficient way. How can we balance our extraversion-introversion?

I went to see Zohan.  It’s a comedy but it does have some message behind. May the international conflicts be the result of some particular interested group in our society?

22 August 2008

For the bank holiday eve, the hollow feeling ticked in again. 

It is funny to know some people to think about Jimmy Carter with different backgrounds. Some of them love to highlight his political failure on economy, and they would like to keep a distance feeling with him.

The liberal view on many issues by Jimmy Carter should be respected.

I went to have a soup noodle before to have a drink at SOHO for my mate’s birthday.

21 August 2008

I had a dinner at Chinatown with a mate doing his PhD at Zurich. He uses GLM to look at the HIV. Using Genetic Algorithms to look at cycle of HIV can be very useful to identify the right time for particular drugs.  He’s thinking that he is going to more than 10 journal papers when he is finishing his PhD.   

20 August 2008

In Gifts Differing, I tried to learn different learning mode. Reading, listening, associating and communicating skills are related to our personality. How should I learn?

How about the choice of work?

19 August 2008

“No model developer should be excused from this task, and no self-respecting science would settle for anything less” (Gupta et al. 2008). I like this cynical comment to some people worship automatic calibration in modelling.  

I just found that all the commodities were so expensive in the supermarket. What can I eat?

18 August 2008

I went to see a film about Jimmy Carter after having a plate of fried noodles.  Jimmy’s courage should be respected.

17 August 2008

After buying some books, brunch of us went to a coffee before going to homeless people service.  I bumped in my colleague and his religious mates. I guessed I was a bit different to them. Hahaha.   

16 August 2008

I went to Greenwich to have noodles. People were just talking about Olympics. My feeling to Greenwich was different to be last time to be there. I went to Charing Cross to meet some mates and then we went to have some food at Piccadilly Circus.  I guessed that we were the nosiest table in the restaurant.

15 August 2008

Watching the nine-year-old singer’s performance in the Beijing National Stadium, I was emotionally touched.  The interesting thing about this performance is the aftermath created by different media. I am not sure why I found very difficult to have any report on the lip-synch in Hong Kong’s newspapers.  The western media are very happy to put the stories in spotlight and question the credibility for the show, but they never say about the Chinese official’s openness to handle the issue by giving out the statement.  In China, they do have some open discussion on it. I am not sure whether Hong Kongers are not care about it or our media wanted to keep low tone on it.

The performance also reminded me the performance by Nikki Webster in Sydney 2000 Olympic. I am not talking about their similarity that both have little girls or the artificial cinematic effect. I am more interested to the theme of the song. In the Australian performance, “Under the Southern skies” is more about coming together from sea seas instead of competition. Comparing to 2008 Olympic, our song seems to stress on the wealth of our motherland and the different races in China. I hope that we are being called Sinocentric. In any case, we should love our country and our fellow neighbours living under the same sky.   

Having lunch under the sun may not be my favourite but it is good for one for awhile.

Any encounter is just driving my craziness. To escape excessive simulation, I hid in the library for my consolation with my time series. Taking a book to look at head loss of Bernoulli’s principle was a great fun for me. I just checked 3 psychology related books from the library. Do I have time for them?

Getting out from the office, I just stayed in the Student Union. Well! We had a lot of mature (or people) in our Union. Where were they from? Yes, I shouted my social view in the pub again. 

 The tube was suspended. I went home by many detours and ended up in a cab.

14 August 2008

I just wanted to run away from the office to do some shopping like buying kitchen rolls.

13 August 2008

I am reading how the chaotic theory put into marketing.  Non-linear relationships, repetitiveness, boundaries and physical constraints of the systems are some basic on how we look at our world uncertainly. I know I am saying rubbish but this is statistics telling us.

 12 August 2008

I spent more than 2 hours with the MSc student to work out how he’s going to work on his program. I guessed that doing research needs luck.

11 August 2008

I went to lunch in a hospital and swim at ethos.

10 August 2008

Are our Global Circulation Models (GCMs) the result of the Delphi method? Perhaps, we are looking for our oracle.

Some Hong Kong mates came to our hall to have a BBQ. Well, we just put our food in the oven at the end.

9 August 2008

Our hall having some party went on, but I just stayed in my room and slept.

8 August 2008

The opening of Olympics was spectacular, but I did not want people ask me whether I was excited about Olympics. 

Staying in the Holland Club, I was glad to know more about the national relationship between German and Dutch. The rose-tinted dystopia may be the ideological archetype on which we clung. The education with low emphases on nation identity resulted from the aftermath of war and colonialism may set the direction of our education.

7 August 2008

The best way to not have an encounter it is staying in the library.

6 August 2008

Hatter gave a question on whether you know Time in Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland. I may need to know more about “His” series.

I went to dinner at Chinatown.  Then, I thought about the role of Berlin in German at SOHO.

5 August 2008

I plotted some graphs. Do you want some? How to plot more?

4 August 2008

I plotted some graphs. Do you want some?

3 August 2008

I plotted some graphs.

2 August 2008

I went to see the Dark Knight. I know that “I am good at calculation”. Chinese from Hong Kong are bad guys with affiliations with European Mafia. We are aggressive like a wolf and cunning like a fox. The experiment by Joker is great fun. I could not hold myself by not clapping hand when the tall black folks throw the bomb initiator to the sea to stop the chaos which may result from our survival instinct. The answer of selecting between deterministic and fuzzy approach to our lives may be etched in our personality (judgement and perception). In a nutshell, the film is a displacement of the anxiety towards certain ethnic groups. People are seeking security and order in the virtual world by stochastic methods, similar to Harvey Dent/Two-Face.   

I had dinner at the Crispy duck restaurant and a drink in Café de Hong Kong.

Thank you for Olympics, the internet restriction is lifted in China. The transparency is encouraging and engendering trust between different media and people. The negative tone of the Economist (2^nd August 2008) about Olympics may not provide a whole or fair picture for the currently situation.

I agreed that Orwell’s view on sport. It is a “mimic warfare” to keep our fellows busy and staying in pubs. Looking at the riots and social disorders associated with UEFA European Football championship and other football competitions, we should know the vulgar and crass behaviour of our animal nature and war affinity. As Fornari says, war is the result of our “love needed”.  It may be a paradox to the view of the Economist about the need of enemy. I guess we need a harmony society but not a dysfunctional society described by Orwell. However, the big brother phenomena by our increasing “security”, Doublethink and Newspeak by our beloved “neutral” magazine are putting us to the IDEAL world of “1984”.        

1 August 2008

I tried to understand the support vector machine and regularisation. I felt very tired. I also looked at frequency domain. However, I am not sure what I was really getting out from it.  

I went to dinner near Ealing Broadway before going to some grocery shopping.

Our Mexican mates in our hall prepared a Mexican fest for us. After a long week, it’s a very nice dinner although I had my dinner. I really needed to say thank you to their kindness.

31 July 2008

I went to Library to talk about the expired book. It was nice that the librarian waived my penalty. I was scared for radical emotion. I decided to stay in library to stay away from it.

30 July 2008

I kept on copy and paste. When the obsession blinded my rational thought, I decided to disappear.

29 July 08

After lunch, I went to library for a trip. When I was wondering at level 5, a student asked me whether I work there. Do I look like a librarian?

Copying and pasting are the main part of the research.

Making model work is not easy. I hope the MSc student’s model for the climate change project will work.

Longing is opposite to shortening.

28 July 08

I just wanted to sleep.

Looping is just keeping on taking away the time.

27 July 08

Our hall set up a bouncing castle for Laser gun shooting.  After a game, I went to Ealing Festival and did some shopping. Then, I was back to hall playing Jenga.  People asked me whether I am Korean. No.

I know the force. My star sign may give the indication of my life.  I stimulate and make people to have to reassure.

Every bookstore has a section about China. This is a kind of obsession.  

26 July 08

Getting up, we were heading to airport. At the U-bahn, an Argentinean asked us about the train to the airport. Owing to engineering work, it was no direct train from Alexander plaza to the airport. As a result, both my friends and the Argentinean missed the flight.  Therefore, we had some card game at the airport instead.

My flight delayed for more than an hour. I talked with a Berlin economic student who is going to take a summer course in LSE. Of course, I expressed my point of view for my beloved hedge fund managers and credit crunch.

Finally, I was back to home at around eleven thirty.     

When people are crazy, they want to sing.

25 July 08

Why did I want to go to Berlin? Perhaps I wanted to understand the history or tried to follow some footsteps of some artists.  

I don’t know why I feel the destitution in the city. Perhaps, the disharmony of the architecture touched my chord of my heart. When we put neo-classical, functional, modern and post-modern buildings with the graffiti, I just felt like listening to cacophonous music. I may become like heavy metal or anarchist if I lived in Berlin.

Getting up, we went to a park. I listened to my mates stories of their live in Switzerland. In the afternoon, I went to bookstores. They’re amazing.  The collection of books in foreign languages were much more divert than the UK’s bookstore. Also, the German stores had more education related books and intellectual board games when the England stores were overflowing some novels by so-called upcoming or inspired writers. 

I had some descent German dinner, a meal with a lot of pork.

We went to a club after dinner. I was so sorry to my mates that they had to pay for me because I was running out of Euros. The music in the club was interesting. We had some songs like Downtown by Petula Clark. Apart from Oldies, we had Brittney Spears for R&B. Wicked!!!!

24 July 08

The stupid U-bahn trapped my mate. Anyway, we went to some Charlotte’s cattle. I was not interested the big house but I want to find the core values.

When I was sitting down in a park, a homeless guy started talking with me in German. Then, I told him that I could not speak German. He talked with me in English and told me about his metal problem and his situation in a foreign land. Anyway, after coffee, we went to Obama’s talk. Sometime, circular, empty and contradictory statements may be still persuasive if they are from orators. Anyway, Obama should be a nice president candidate.   

We had dinner in a Kebab shop. Then, we explored the red night district a bit.

23 July 08

After having a breakfast, we went to another hostel. Then we have a Kebab before we went to zoo. At the evening, we went to see Hancock. Then, we walked the club area.  

22 July 08

We met another German mate at Alexander plaza before looking around the city on a bus.  We had a lunch at a beer garden. Then, we went to have a Kebab before going to see “My Life” at Chamaleon.  Mobile, friends and routines were put together to a cabaret. Well, it was an English-speaking one.

21 July 08

This is my first time in the continental Europe. The airport of Berlin was very simple. After putting our stuff in the hostel, we walked around the city and went to Sony Centre for dinner and Mamma Mia!

Of course, not everyone can sing so that we don’t expect their performance in the film. It is still a amusing movie.

The film made us to recall our last summer. Thank you for the music, I can still tell boring some jokes.  Before going back to the hostel, we had some ice cream at Haagen Dazs.  It was great fun to see some flies flying at the fringe in the shop. After a very Americanized night, I just wanted to sleep early.   

20 July 08

How can we predict our future? I like fuzzy logic which looses our identity of our classification.

The correlation of our noise set out by our physical constraint establishes some structure of random process. Is it more for our time series approach?  Anyway, stationary assumption is difficult to ensure.

I tried to brush up my engineering mathematics. Final value theorem is, hmm, tasty.

What is the women role in the religion books? What is the role of our interpretation for some holy books?

 19 July 08

I tried to switch off and stay at home.

The tone of “the Clash of Civilization” by Huntington is very like the one in 1984 by George Orwell.  Do we want peace or cooperation?

The reason for clash by Huntington is parallel to the reason of discrimination:

1.       Emphasising the differences between groups

2.       Interaction between groups

3.        Economic and social change

4.       Group consciousness

5.       No concession

18 July 08

I met my supervisor. I suppose that I should finish extracting my data as soon as possible.

In a Japanese restaurant, I talked with a retired couple from Hong Kong. It was surprised that I knew his nephew working in Hong Kong. What will be the life of OAP?  

Strawberry and cherry may be two treasures for English summer.

Emotion attachment is source of torment but this is just our nature.  

17 July 08

After breakfast, I jumped on the train and went back to South Kensington for some work.  On the evening, I went to a Vietnamese restaurant. Finishing dinner, I just wanted to go home to have some rest instead of going to a Salsa pub.  

16 July 08

Setting off from the hostel, I had some hiking near Bonchurch along the coast path. Then, I had a drink and read “the God delusion” at a pub next to the sea. A retired lady with her sister and 4 dogs sat at the next table asked me whether the book was difficult to me. Comparing to abstract subject like logic, I did not suppose that this kind of soft social science book should be difficult. In any case, we started our conversation. Her husband was teaching in a college in London. She was used to go to Hong Kong with her husband, and she knew quite a lot of Cantonese etiquette. However, he passed away last year. Everything seemed to be just a memory.  

After having dinner at an Indian restaurant, I just wanted to watch Big Brother.

15 July 08

Going to a Roman Villa at Brading, I was just not sure why the Victorians were so excited for some decoloured mosaic.  

After having some Thai food in Shanklin, I tired some card game.  Then, sitting on the beach, I looked at the stars and contemplated Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. Did I just jump the step or having a pyramid like our population pyramid in the developed world?   Am I too rational or just afraid of feeling?

14 July 08

When people were working, I just walked away from London.  After finishing some thoughts, I headed to Waterloo for a train to Isle of Wright.

Having a dinner in a pub located in the Old Village of Shanklin, I was thinking of my life in ten year time.   

13 July 08

I went to King Cross to meet my German mate.  Then, we went to Notting Hill Gate for a café with some more friends.

At the evening, we went to prepare sandwiches for homeless people. How can everyone have a better life?  

12 July 08

After lunch in a pub, I stayed at home to assemble pieces together tangibly and abstractly.  Perhaps, my obsession of regression is sublimation. How does a Woking-Hotelling confidence band confine a regression?

I live in a metaphorical world.

11 July 08

Getting off from the office, I went to Student Union for a drink. The coexistence in a same temporal and spatial scale just provokes a fixation of emptiness.

 Then, I went to Ealing Broadway for dinner. My mate passed me a book called “the God Delusion”. It may be a good travel reading.  

10 July 08

My computer was keeping running in loops. I just engaged in my loony ideas.

9 July 08

I could only get into trouble.

After having dinner at Piccadilly Circus, I went to see Mongol.  I felt it similar to Apocalypto. When we lived in an era without system, we would like to have system. However, when we live in a system, we feel tricked.

8 July 08

I could not get information of one station for the whole day programming. MathLab could be very slow.

Having dinner with a mate heading to Japan, I found that people could be entrapped in the emotion easily.

7 July 08

I just kept on swimming. It may be a stupid but I was listening to some cheesy music.

6 July 08

I went to pack sandwiches for the homeless people.  A guy with Scottish accent talked with us about his theories of machine and human. His imagination was amazing.  A guy from Berlin showed us his yoga posture.  It was nice to learn the cognition of homeless people.

5 July 08

Watching Kung Fu Panda in Woking, I tried to understand how to follow the flow and how to be special.

4 July 08

I chatted with some random people on the tube about reasoning.  Can ideologies blind us?

After swimming, a brunch of French mates and I went to Piccadilly Circus for some Japanese food. When I talked on Philosophy and our bank system, I was just a bit crazy.

My attention was just taken away…

3 July 08

A mate came to London. We just had lunch and Ice cream with him before he was heading to Cambridge.

2 July 08

I chatted to a guy doing Taylor expansion on the tube. Perhaps, I should try to work out my model inside the tube.

After dinning at Leicester square, we went to a pub at SOHO. Around 12:00, I just needed to try to get the last tube home.   

1 July 08

I just didn’t know how to handle the feeling of ambivalence. My psychic needs to claim down.

In the hall committee meeting, the idea for the summer seems to be not much.

17 June 08

I felt just tired. Cygwin was installed in my computer. I just don’t know how to handle the data. Thank you so much for my mate in our office.

 It is not easy to explain what I am doing.

Being asked why I kept myself busy, I just answered that I may be afraid to be lonely…

16 June 08

I tired to convince what I am working is working. It is not easy.

Having dinner at a Brazilian restaurant was nice but expensive. 

An existence is already a temptation. I desperately want it and I don’t know how to forget it.

15 June 08

I am listening to “You know I’m No good” by Amy Winehouse. I was trouble. 

Getting my room, I went to picnic at Hyde Park.

14 June 08

Is the growth of the government surveillance eroding our liberty?

What is 42 days detention without charging?

Should we teach in our mother tongue? Perhaps, English text book just give us a bridge to international academia. It has its own practical need.  

After having a Japanese meal at Piccadilly Circus, we went to a bar at SOHO. Then, we had some ice-cream at Leicester square before rushing for the last tube. 

13 June 08

There was a poster presentation for the final year students in our department.

How to take my eyes off from my obsession?

From the union, we went to a Brazilian club at the old street.

I took out the book I am reading at a club. It should be very geeky. 

12 June 08

I had butter chicken at Bayswater.

When we know that lives have to move on, London should a station that should not be missed.

11 June 08

I went to a workshop by the Grantham and Walker institute. I learned more about the application of finite elements in climate change research. Also, I knew more about the GCMs. It seemed that statistics is playing all the part of the research.   

10 June 08

A talk about IPCC AR4 in physics department was interesting.

I went to swim.

What is the system of a gambling system?

9 June 08

Perhaps, the cause and effect relationship of climate change is just a superstition presented by Derren Brown. We may just find pattern to feel that we are in our control.

I went home. Then, I went to a pub for a apple juice before I went back my room to watch big brother. Well! Blind, albino, black and Asian seemed to be theme of this year show.

8 June 08

I finished Memories of my Melancholy Whores by Gabriel Garcia Maroquez. The book is famous because of the fame of author. I went to China town to have some Dim Sum. I did not know why I was so keen of it. Then, we tried to hunt a cinema. At the end, we went to see Sex and the City at the Tottenham court road. The ticket was expensive. Anyway, it was a film give people some console in the city. Many gender and racial issues could be observed in the film.

After the film, we went to have Korean food. I liked kimchi.

7 June 08

How to be honest? We need to address the behaviour, credit the good deed, set free the self defensive mechanism and make appeal. “Guys with gross obesity telling guys just emerging from emaciation to go on a major diet” is a characterised line by a senior official in the foreign ministry on the carbon emission.

I just like to look at human in mythological way. Some paranormal discussion was very thrilling. Walking in Hyde park, I just though why people celebrate Dragon boat festival. After eating some Zhongzi, we went to have some spicy food in Bayswater. 

6 June 08

After work, we went to Union for a pint before heading to Brick Lane for some curry. I don’t know. I am ready to fair for right. I stood up to the unfair charge and the inadequate deal. When I face my emotion, my knee is weak.

5 June 08

How do parameters affect each other in a simple equation?

I went to see a Mongolian film about a girl and a dog. It’s a slow film. What is karma?

4 June 08

The liberation of women is after the emancipation of African in the American history. The American president may follow same sequence. Perhaps, the race may be more like the results of Survivor. 

I went to dinner in a Korean restaurant. The food was nice but it’s a bit expensive.

Why people succumb to desire…

Bought up in colonist education system, people have not got strong feeling of nationalism. Why countries need to scare their people by demonizing the other countries like the Big Brother in 1984? Are Hong Kong people yellow peril or traitor? Should we live in the dream of the United Nations?

3 June 08

After swimming on previous day, I had difficulty to get up.

I went to have a chat with my funding body about my progress of my PhD. Well! I know that I need to get results and prepare my annual report.  

What is confidence? How did Hitler do?